i think i've really kept it in real long, too long in fact.
so much so that i was thinking abt it the entire time in school and when i was in NTUC and a woman exclaimed loudly that we were standing there talking and blocking her way, i just scolded her a bitch. hello? like i have every right to stand there as much as you do, you could just excuse yourself gently? B*TCH.
all right, but that's not the real amelia isn't it? i hardly ever use that word.
so what made me say it?
well, let's just put it this way. To me, there are two kinds of friends.
true friends, and superficial ones.
True friends are ppl who you can confide in, turn to when you just need someone, or just be able to sit beside each other in silence without feeling awkward at all.
Superficial friends, however, are ppl who you come to realise that you can never rely on. they are just ppl who treat you as a friend just cos they need one and dont wanna feel lonely. when you need help, they turn away, thinking it's none of their business. in other words, you're being foolish to even expect them to support you.
but come on la, in this world where everyone is trying to find a place where they can truly fit in, who are you kidding man?
ppl who just spend time with you cos they have no one else to spend time with. and when someone they 'prefer' comes along, they disappear.
yes i admit i've done that to some ppl and i'm truly sorry. but now, i finally know how it feels to be on the receiving end of this all.
some might call it retribution, but let's face reality, Everyone does that. you, me, he, she, they, all.
i guess by now, there would be ppl who would have opposing thoughts. but that's me. i'd really like to be your friend. i like true friendships. but if you're gonna be a superficial one, than i'd rather not be yours at all.
in addition, you might find i'm a sensitive freak. but if you dont mean what you say, i'd rather you dont say it at all. i mean, you know it hurts ppl, then why say it when you're just going to say 'i'm kidding' after that?
there're really some ppl who i really like to walk up and say straight into their face 'i hate you'.
but i ask myself, do i really hate that person? maybe, but God tells us not to.
To love your neighbours as yourself. Love your enemies.
all right, i do.
hai, after typing this, what exactly is my point? i dont know either. maybe i'll know someday, somehow. it's been writting with emotions as complex as an impressionistic art piece. go figure.
but in all due respect, i do not refer to anyone in my section, i think they rock :D